Waaaaaay off track

I have not had a good week but I have also had plenty of chances to remind myself of what I don't want.

I don't want the following;

to be the fattest, least fit member of my family.
to have an unhealthy body fat.
to look in the mirror and see lumps and bumps where they shouldn't be.
to feel like keeping myself covered up in front of my husband.
to wake up with extremely bad headaches because I have eaten too much chocolate.
to buy chocolate and keep the evidence hidden!
to have one outfit that I can wear comfortably because all my other clothes are too small of show the lumps and bumps I don't like.
to have to explain to people why I didn't do the run I signed up for a year ago (too late to change this one now but I don't want it to happen again).
to turn down my families suggestions/requests of things to do because I know I will huff and puff like a steam train and resemble a tomato by the time I am finished.

Time to sort myself out. I have a lot of head work to do as well as body work.